Not a race picture. A running to the bathroom picture.
While waiting in line for the bathroom, I realized that I wasn't, in fact, drinking my Gatorade Prime Pouch. I was drinking my Recover Drink for post-race (mistake #3). But whatever. It was only 6 miles.
Pre-race. See the sparkle, excitement and confidence in my eyes?
The race happened in 4 separate waves, each 4 minutes apart, with the elite athletes starting out first along the flat 3-mile out, 3-mile back course through downtown Boston.
Mile 1 was pure adrenaline and dodging other runners. I was pretty shocked at our split time of 8:52 after Mile 1. That's really fast for me. But I felt okay. This first mile was pretty shaded and tree-lined, so the hot sun hadn't yet become a factor.
Mile 2 was the same. We hit Mile 2 sometime in the 18-minute mark. Still a fast pace when our normal training runs would be somewhere in the 20-minute range.
Shortly after this point was when I started to fade. I was HOT. I hated the fact that I was wearing a ball cap and 2 layers. (Um, I usually never run a race with more than a sport bra tank top, shorts and a ponytail in my hair. So I'm not sure why, on this particular morning, I felt compelled to wear a hat AND a short sleeve shirt on top of my long sports bra.) Grrrrrrrr.
There was no more shade. It was full sun. It was a flat course. Kristy had started to pull ahead of me. (Shaunna is a speedster and was wayyyyy ahead from the get-go.)
It was all I could do to move forward. I kept telling myself to just get to the halfway point. Just make it to the turnaround.
I hit the turnaround in the 30 minute mark. Still pretty on track, but definitely slowing.
Somewhere between Miles 3 and 4, I hit the wall. I shut down. It was mind over matter, and my mind won. I started walking, defeated.
No sparkle in my eye anymore.
I tried to run again. I would run for a few beats, but then start walking again. I took this pic somewhere during Mile 4 when I was still walking. Nothing could get me out of my own head.
This was my worst fear for the half marathon that I ran earlier this month. Thankfully it didn't happen to me then, although my finish time was much slower than I anticipated.
But it happened to me during this 10k, that's for sure.
My pre-race goal was to finish in under 1 hour.
You can be sure I'll be looking for redemption. And soon.
(And for the record, Shaunna and Kristy did awesome, with times of 51:55 and 59:49, respectively. They rocked it!)