Wednesday, February 01, 2012
The Guilt of Being a Working OUT OF THE HOME Mom
Please allow me to indulge in a little bit of Working Mom Wallowing today.
(The Mom Guilt - it eats away at one's insides, no?)
I sit here, feeling awful.
Baby has been hacking and coughing and sniffling all this week. But he's my toughie. He NEVER EVER complains. (Just wipes his nose on his sleeve and moves on.)
He doesn't have a fever.
I can tell he feels like crap. Yet he has gone to school all week. We have consciously made the decision to send him to school. Because I.have.to.go.to.work. Because Hubby.has.to.go.to.work.
And please trust me when I say I mean nothing malicious, nothing polarizing by this, but in my mind? There is NO WAY you can tell me that Work At Home Moms have it just as tough. I'm not buying it.
The Sick Kid Shuffle is an issue that Moms who work out of the home have to deal with. A lot. If I worked from home? THERE WOULD BE NO ISSUE. I would keep my child at home with me. And yes, maybe deadlines would get missed due to tending to a sick child. But the fact of the matter is that a sick(ish) child would be where he needs to be. At home.
Hubby and I simply cannot take time off from work each and every time someone has a sniffle. If so, one of us would be home at least once a week! But I'm finding it hard rationalizing where I, as a Working Mom, should draw the line. I need to be a good employee. I need to not put my boss (who is awesome, by the way) in a position where I'm constantly asking for time away from the office. I need to get my work done. As it is, I feel like I'm always needing to rearrange my schedule anyway--4:00 basketball games; parent-teacher conferences; dentist appointments, etc. I rarely work a full 7:30am-4:30pm work week without some sort of juggling.
Yet mothering absolutely comes first. (And please know, it should go without saying, that if Baby had even the slightest bit of fever, that we would have kept him home.)
Yet here I sit. At work. While Baby is at school.
Still snotting on his sleeve, I'm sure.