Chapter One is here.
At my initial consultation with Trainer Sarah she did a fitness assessment, took my measurements and spoke to me about nutrition.
The fitness assessment consisted of some bosu ball work (my balance sucks), pushups (10 real ones!) and some ab work. I felt exhausted afterwards and then realized, "Huh. That was only the assessment part." I knew then that the real training would definitely be pushing me to my limits.
So the measurements part. Think of the worst parts of your body. Example: jiggly arms, upper thighs, hips, boobs, waist, etc. Yeah. Trainer Sarah measured alllllllll those areas of me. And WROTE THEM DOWN. And then? She pinched my fat to do a body fat assessment. *shudder* (I was too horrified to even ASK to look at the numbers...) When I found myself involuntarily uttering the word, "gross" after each measurement she took, she spoke up and told me, "No more. You are not allowed to say that word." Okay then.
[You guys, I haven't even taken a "Before" picture. Part of me wants to, to have evidence of my progress. I'm will be re-measured on April 1. But the self-conscious/pessimist part of me is overpoweringly resistant. What if nothing changes?]
At that first meeting, Trainer Sarah spent the majority of our hour together talking about nutrition. The thing that stuck with me the most was the fact that if I DON'T watch my food intake while I'm working out with her, that there is a possibly that I could in fact GAIN weight because I'm building muscle. And that would be my worst nightmare.
She also kept reiterating that what she was giving me was NOT a diet. That it was simply a guideline for healthier eating:
***No more than 3 hours between meals. [This is a totally new concept for me. It's typical for me to go looong stretches without eating and then be absolutely ravenous.]
***2 servings of fruit daily (preferably apples, citrus fruits or berries because melons and grapes are high in sugar) (Guess what the only fruits I like are? Yup. Melons and grapes.) and no fruit after 2pm (something to do with the glycemic index blahblahblah).
***Dinner should be lean protein and veggies. No carbs from whole grains at dinner. [*weeping*]
***Veggies are a free-for-all. Can eat as many as I like! [So green M&Ms totally count, right?]
***Avoid processed food.
***NO ALCOHOL [*dies on the inside*]
Surprisingly, following these guidelines has been easier in some ways than I anticipated. I pretty much eat the exact same thing every.single.weekday.
Not pictured: Breakfast = whole wheat bagel thin with lowfat peanut butter.
Morning snack = some fruit and a Dannon light and fit yogurt with 1/4 cup Special K Protein Plus cereal
Lunch = Joseph's flax, oat bran and whole wheat pita bread with 4oz turkey breast
Afternoon snack = raw veggies with salsa or 15 All Bran crackers and 1oz. reduced fat cheddar cheese
The hardest parts, for me, are this:
I'm STARVING during my ride home from work. I mean, I'm totally fine all day, but it all of a sudden hits me on the drive home. I've tried eating a snack at 4ish, right before I get in the car, but it doesn't help.
Dinners have been tough. I CRAVE carbs at dinner. Rice, pasta, potatoes, bread. I have definitely cut back, but not completely avoided. Willpower? I gots none.
And the complete and utter avoidance of alcohol?
So I've been following this for about 3 weeks now. And when I get discouraged or fall off the wagon (by strapping on the feed bag on the weekends or having a glass of beer or wine) I keep reminding myself that anything I'm doing now is soooo much better than what I had been doing. That tomorrow is another day to start fresh.
But I honestly haven't noticed any real changes in my body yet.
What I have noticed, though, is that my desire for physical activity has improved. I actually look forward to my mornings with Trainer Sarah. Even though I know I'll be a limp ball of pain when she's done with me. And I'm excited to run! Yesterday? I actually ran twice in one day. I KNOW.
Until I start to see some actual physical changes in my appearance, though, I feel like it's hard to be totally GUNG HO. Which, in all honesty, just perpetuates the cycle, right?
And thus I have just defined the entire root of my problem...WHOA.