Monday, December 06, 2010

My Existential Blogging Crisis

*shuffles to center stage*

*clears throat*

Tap tap tap...Is this thing on?

Testing 1, 2, 3.  Testing.

So, um, hi.

Seems I took a little unintentional blogging break.

I think this may be the longest I have gone without writing, barring family vacations.

My mind has been full, but my ideas feel stale.

And as much as I hate to admit it, the drop in comments in this space (ironically, that blog post garnered a relatively larger number of comments) leaves me shrugging my shoulders and kinda wondering "What's the point?"

(Oh man, it's the old "if a tree falls in the woods" mentality.  If a blogger stops blogging, does anyone notice?)

I first started this blog as a way to remember.  Early motherhood was a blur.  And I wanted to be able to have an archive, a place to record the memories.  Especially since I suck at scrapbooking.  And had never once entertained the idea of keeping baby books. (Yuck.)

And now that the boyz are older, the stories, well, they continue to flow.  I swear, instead of "I had a mind once.  Now I have children", my tagline could be "Because you can't make this shit up."

But sometimes there's a lull.  In bothy my life and in my desire to document my life.

And that's a good thing.

Sure, I could write about how we just had to get a new car because I swerved to avoid an animal and hit a huDge curb and wrecked my car.  But we are lucky.  We can afford a car payment.

Sure, I could write about how we just had parent-teacher conferences and all my boyz are doing amazing.  But we are lucky.  All 3 of my boyz are thriving and healthy and academically strong.

And sure, I could write about how we're struggling with buying Christmas gifts for the boyz, because if you buy a 9 year old child an iPod touch, then what's next?  But we are lucky to have these sorts of stupid "dilemmas".

Sometimes it's easier to just LIVE.  Without writing.  Without constantly trying to come up with blog posts in my head.

So that's what I've been doing.


Kimberly said...

And there is nothing wrong with that. We will still be here if you like it or not ;)

Michelle said...

Don't think "what's the point" please! Cause I LOVE reading your blog! You always make me laugh! And we like to hear about the everyday "stupid dilemmas"!

Beth said...

I feel the exact same way.

anne nahm said...

Take it easy, babe. It will come back. Until then, miss you!

Shell said...

Taking a break is good! I haven't taken a long one, but I shut my computer down for the weekend and that felt so good.

Excited to see that you will be at Blissdom! :)

Mary said...

Dude, I have been feeling exactly the same! EXACTLY.

Jayna @ Yankee Drawl said...

I've found myself in the same boat so often, barely even wanting to put out even something as simple as a picture post.

Breaks are good, especially when you are happy to come back and don't have to force the words out.

And everyone will still be here!

bohomamasoul said...

Breaks are good, but if you ever stop blogging, I'll stalk you until you start writing again. So be forewarned, my dear.

DIAPERS in the DESERT said...

I would totally notice.. if you stopped blogging!!! I love your blog!! I understand wanting to take a break... so take as long as you like, but eventually I hope you come back.

Life As I Know It said...

I go through the same thing every so often. And I usually take loooong breaks from it all.
But - I think I'm at the point where I am doing it for me now and not for the rest of the blogosphere. I use it as a consistent place to write...and sometimes, when I'm lucky, I take what I started in my blog and turn it into a published essay. win win :)
Keep blogging. But only if YOU want to. I'll keep reading!

Jules said...

the point of you blogging about life is to make me remember mine is normal!!!! Do NOT stop!

Carolyn said...

I love your blog too. I had just found it when I think you ran into your slump. I hope it wasn't me. ;-)

Sorry I don't comment much. But then again I don't post much either. I read often though!


Julie {Angry Julie Monday} said...

Ya, I'm in total crisis mode right now. I refrain from posting a lot of the mundane details of my hectic and chaotic daily life. Who wants to hear about me going to the doctor and grocery store?

chrissyrudd said...

I so enjoy your writing! You put some of my own thoughts into great words, and then I know I'm not the only one going through it, having thought it, been blessed or cured by it.


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