Monday, March 22, 2010

The Little Girl

Even though I have all boyz, my life is not without some girl power.  I have my niece, my friends' children, and even our next-door neighbors have 3 girls.

So rarely do I dwell on the fact that I am the sole possessor of girly bits in my Trenches.  I am definitely a guy's gal and it somehow seems fitting that I should be surrounded by males.  It's all sports, all rough and tumble, and all nuts and balls talk around these parts.

Yet there is one little girl...

She's not yet 2.  Her name is Kira and she's the youngest daughter of one of my fellow football moms.  Kira's mom and I have become close over the past year.

I don't know what it is, but I have physical uterine PANGS when I see Kira interact with my boyz.  All 3 of them are sooo gentle with her.  So loving.  So "big brotherish".  And it makes me wonder what could have been...

(Insert standard disclaimer here:  I love my family.  I love my life. I'm FINE with the way things are.  We are ALL DONE having children.  I couldn't imagine my life without my 3 monkeys.  There's just always that little bit of wistfulness that doesn't go away...)

I joke with my friend and ask her if she minds if I call Kira "Lydia".  The name of the girl I never had.

Except I'm not really joking.

And then when I see this?

Oof.  My womb weeps.

15 comments:

Small Burst said...

Awww. It's a sight to see Daddy with his little princess so I completely understand the womb weeping. Maybe your friend will let you have playdates with "Lydia"? She's a cutie!

Classy Fab Sarah said...

My uterus has teh pangs. So sweet.

LCW said...

First, there is nothing sweeter seeing a daddy or son with a little girl. We were shocked that our baby came out with girly bits... My H's family doesn't produce girls, until now.
Second, are you or the hubs from Boston? I am, in fact I took the hubs and baby girl to their first spring training game yesterday.
I love your blog. I hope you got the house sanitized and you're puke and poop free.

trifitmom said...

i have 2 girls and there was this little boy in one of our music classes and he was so darn cute that i told the mom that her little son made me want a third...he was just adorable and they way the mom and him were....ohhhhhhhhhh i wanted my little boy.....i hate that hubby doesn't have a boy ....oh well.....girls will have to learn to play hockey with him

MommyLovesStilettos said...

:) SO cute!!

Mary Ellen said...

AW! I don't know what else to say except that that picture is super sweet.

Erika said...

I could have written this post as well. In January, I became pregnant with our third and then subsequently miscarried, but for those few weeks, all I heard was, "maybe this is your girl." It was exciting and very scary to think about having a girl. I still haven't decided what I want to do. I do understand though the mourning of not having a girl.

Rita/Fighting Off Frumpy said...

OHHHH Sarah.

As you know, I'm in the exact same boat with the three boys thing. Most days - MOST days - I'm totally and completely happy with that, and even have gone so far as to think to myself, "I'm glad I don't have a girl."

But there are those fleeting times when I see the cute little dresses or shoes, or think of my teenage handwritten journals that my sons will never appreciate, and I question the all-boy thing. I have a great relationship with my mom and sometimes my heart hurts that I won't have that kind of relationship with my own daughter. (My "Lydia"'s name is "Carly.")

Wonder if we'll ever get over feeling this way?

Serenityville said...

Yer gonna make me cry!

amanda said...

that is pretty edible :)

ps - r we getting a "cleanse" update soon? have been wondering if you are back to normal?

Life As I Know It said...

ah, yes, the uterine pangs for a girl. I'm there. Do you know what I just did about 10 minutes ago? I submitted an application to adopt a GIRL dog. Crazy, yes.

LoveFeast Table said...

My father in law had all boys...then three grandsons and finally my little girl came along, can I just say, he now has his sunshine! Tell hubby to hold out for grand daughters! From the looks of my pop in law, it's pretty amazing!

Vodka Logic said...

Your womb weeps...aww.

CaraBee said...

I have my little girl, so I don't get the pangs of daughter envy, but I am *starting* to think that maybe another child might not be such a bad idea. I'm not gonna lie, the idea of another child scares me, but I feel this little twinge. Hold me.

Hey, we'd like to feature you over at BlogTrotting next Monday! Can you have a post ready?

Maureen said...

Sweetness! See if you can adopt her and give her back before college tuition starts. Or puberty - whichever is cheaper.

:)

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